Time for a break
My mind whirrs in fruitless striving
As I try to make sense of turbulence
That surrounds my heart as I think
Of the arguments and incidents
Of things I desperately wish weren’t
Beyond my control
I throw barbed comments, and yes,
Sometimes accusations at God
Trying to make God feel bad enough
That a change in the struggles will be sent
That maybe I can dictate something
Different, a new story that shies away
From dark valleys
I grapple and wrestle trying to control
That which is beyond my ability to
Comprehend, let alone direct
Everything I do to try to maintain
A semblance of control only serves
To show how little control I really have
Over what matters most to me
My striving fails
I need to take a break from my efforts
To operate on my own strength alone
Can I really trust that which I can’t control?
I don’t know, but I desperately want to
But I can’t even control myself enough
To find a center in which I can listen
To anyone or anything that speaks
What I am straining to hear
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